I discovered at that moment that I have a fierce will to live. It’s not something evident in my experience. Some of us give up on life with only a resigned sigh. Others fight a little, then lose hope. Still others, and I am one of those, never give up… We fight no matter the cost of the battle, the losses we take, the improbability of success. We fight to the very end…
It’s something constitutional, an inability to let go. It may be nothing more than life-hungry stupidity.